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I saw my family break down today. I saw them feel pain that I would never want anyone to feel. Nangnang’s sobs to tatang silent crys, I know they are hurting so bad right now& it kills me to not be able to help them get through this. Bapang Gus was their eldest child. Any parent would probably agree that to have you child die before you is the worst thing any parent will have to go through. It sucks because I felt so hopeless, I couldn’t do anything to help my uncle. There’s so much more that I could write down but no amount of words can describe these feelings I feel right now. I feel so numb.
But where ever bapang gustin is right now, I know he’s in a better place. I hope wherever he is he can finally rest and be free. I hope that where ever he is he knows how much he’s missed and love. Oh Lord please help our family get through this. -
No words can describe how much I love you. I still don’t want to accept that your gone from us forever. I’ve never had to deal with someone passing away so close to me before. I just don’t understand. Why did this have to happen to you? My uncle was so kind, he only cared about what would be best for our family. On top of that he was too young to go, he still had half of his life left to live. Oh bapang Gus why did you have to leave? I’m so mad right now, so many emotions and thoughts. I’m so mad that I wasn’t able to be with him longer or even say goodbye. It hurts sooo much. I never thought I’d ever feel this much pain and sorrow before. But looking into the eyes of my grandparents and mom I know the pain I’m feeling is only a fraction of theirs.
